Those of us at St. Herman's held a Congregational Meeting this past Sunday. We began the meeting as we do all such meetings, invoking the Holy Spirit to "Come and abide in us" and to thereby guide our hearts and our discussions to follow the will of God.
It was an important prayer, because there lay before us two (2) separate and very different opportunities that could provide for the growth of our little community, and both of which in their own way are answers to our now nearly ten years of prayer for a "permanent home" for our mission.
We need not go into detail about the opportunities, but as the spiritual father to this community, it is very edifying (we'll refrain from any use of words associated with 'pride') to watch between 15 and 20 members of our community honestly engaged in trying to discern God's will.
As the Building Committee entered the meeting, there were three alternatives that we found present in these two opportunities. We could make an offer to buy a particular existing building. We could make an offer to lease that same building. Or we could make an offer to buy a large plot of land for well under market value.
But as the meeting progressed, it became incredibly clear that we had ignored a fourth option - that of allowing the Lord to say to us, "Do none of these - be patient, and wait."
As the meeting progressed, I believe at the group's combined following the guidance of the Holy Spirit, a decision was postponed. "Let's re-convene next Sunday again, and give ourselves a week to pray about this." That was the wisdom of 15 to 20 faithful gathered in a 625 square foot chapel inside the Hudson City cemetery.
And it was a Spirit-inspired decision!
Now, as we find ourselves within this next week, how do we in fact try to discern if any of these opportunities are in fact the will of God? Or, is the Lord truly attempting to tell us, "Be patient!"?
Here are some things I found to attempt to help myself, as your spiritual father, to reach a point of assuring that my own focus is truly to seek His will, and not my own:
1) A disciple of St. Joseph the Hesychast said: "We observed that the Elder never embarked on anything without first praying. We would ask him about something in the future or for the next day, and his reply was that he would tell us tomorrow. He would do this so that he could pray first. So, when you want to find out the will of God, abandon your own will completely, together with every other thought or plan, and with great humility ask for this knowledge in prayer. And whatever takes shape or carries weight in your heart, do it and it will be according to God's will.
2) Saint Silouan of Mt. Athos said, "If you are distressed over anything, it means that you are not fully surrendered to God's will, although it may seem that you are living according to His will."
3) Psalm 55:22 - "Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you. He shall never permit the righteous to be moved."
4) 1Peter 5:6-7 - "Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exult you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
5) Mat 21:22 - "And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive."
6) Saint Barsenuphius said, "Here is the luminous teaching of our Savior: 'Thy will be done!' Whoever sincerely pronounces this prayer leaves his own will and puts all things in the will of God."
7) Abba Macarius was asked, 'How should we pray?' The old man said, 'There is no need to make long discourses. It is enough to stretch out the hands and say, 'Lord, as You will, and as You know, have mercy!' And if the conflict grows fiercer, say, 'Lord, help!' For He knows well what we need, and He shows us His mercy.'
8) Saint John Climacus taught, 'All who ask and to not obtain their requests from God are denied for one of the following reasons: they ask at the wrong time; they ask in vanity or unworthily; if they received they would become conceited; or after obtaining their request, they would become negligent.
9) Saint Nilus of Sinai said, 'How many times have I prayed for what seemed to be good for me, not leaving it to God to do as He knows best? And how often, having received what I prayed for, I found myself in distress because I had not asked for it to be according to God's will.'
10) Abba Agathon said, 'In order to pray, we must struggle until our last breath. If we do not find prayer difficult, perhaps it is because we have not yet truly started to pray.'
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